Life 101

I’m back?

Just testing

the morning poops! They always make me late for wherever i need to go!

lifted by love

lovin’ the friends

lovin’ the family

lovin’ the feeling of holding my nephew

lovin’ the new direction I’m taking

lovin’ the new outlook I have for my future

lovin’ God

lovin’ the way God speaks to me through music

lovin’ Tahoe snow

lovin’ the sun

lovin’ the Son

lovin’ life

just found out the sistar has a tumblr! wooo!

lemons…lemons…lemons…

Life handed me lemons, so I guess I’m going to make lemonade. What else am I to do with them?

It may take me a while to squeeze all of the juice out, but believe me I’m trying—trying real hard.

Hopefully when all is done, I’ll be able to watch the sour turn sweet, as I enjoy the finished product, my nice tall glass of lemonade.

But, till then, I’m just gonna have to squeeze as much of the sour as I can out of these suckers.

El Fin….

decisions….decisions…

When thoughts come to mind about decision making how do you act? You have a couple of options:
A: “Fo’get ‘bout it”
We can ponder and ponder and make these decisions in our head. Then we play them out and weigh out the pros and cons of the outcomes. Is it really worth taking the risk? Or we think..I know how I’ll feel, but how will the other? We can never prepare ourselves for another person’s reaction In fear of what may happen or in doubt of a positive outcome, we forget about it.

B: Act on it
We’ve decided to go with the decisions played out in our heads. All out. Ballsy. No guts, no glory. Goin’ with the gut. Going off of pure instinct. Not knowing what may happen, we prepare ourselves for whatever outcome may happen. What if we made all of our decisions based off of pure instinct. Would things be easier? Would we have less stress because we would be free of worry? OR would more stress be brought upon us in dealing with the consequences of our decisions?

C: Limbo
This what most of us do. Its similar to forgetting about. But,only in this case, we keep thinking about. We dwell, ponder, question it but we never act upon it. We’re in limbo. We are faced to keep asking ourselves “What if?” And as much as the question bugs us, we all know that somewhere in the back of our minds we already know that answer. We don’t know nor will we ever. The problem is that as people, that’s not good enough for us. We want an answer yet we won’t allow it to happen. So we just sit there and wait. Maybe the other party will decide for us. Who knows? So we wait…and wait…and wait…

Again, not sure where I was going with this. But if this blog is supposed to be about what’s going on in this ole noggin of mine….well there you go! Yes im pretty random.

btw: This rant was not done during a poop session. :oT

God answers.

Yesterday I had an experience where God had answered one of my prayers. I’ve learned in my experience that even though God may not always answer your prayer in the way you would’ve hoped, he answers it in the way that he sees most fit. And I can’t ask for anything more than that.

My story goes:
Every morning when I leave my house to go to work or school, or wherever it is I’m going, I have my conversation with God. I simply just thank Him for granting me with the many gifts I have (a job, life, family, home, etc), and I pray for strength throughout my day to overcome any obstacles that I may face. Another thing I pray for is that God helps us all to be safe on the road—That we may get from one point to another and return home safely. I do this now because I have noticed how horrible people are driving now. I don’t know what it is, maybe stress from work or the suffering economy, but people just tailgate, high beam, weave through stop and go traffic like it’s nothing. I’m a pretty aggressive driver, but even this stuff irks me a bit.
Well anyway, when my mom came home from work she told me she had been in a car accident. She was driving on 880 and was coming to a stop because the pick-up truck in front of her was slowing down. Before she knew it, the car behind her rear-ended her, causing her to rear-end the truck. She was basically sandwiched between two cars. The car who hit her drove off, and the truck that she hit apparently wanted nothing to do with it. Through all of it, my mom was fortunately able to drive home. Unfortunately, the car looks nothing like it used to. The only pain my Mom feels is from the whiplash and some anxiety. Other than that, she is fine.
I guess my point of this story is that God answered my prayer. Yes I prayed for safety on the road and yes, my mom got into an accident; but, my mom came back home in one piece. I did not question God at all when my mom told me what had happened. Although my prayer was not answered in the way that I thought it would’ve been, I am so very thankful that God brought my Mom back home.

God works in mysterious ways. It is up to us and our faith in God to see “the silver lining” of every situation and believe that it is His work.

Amen.

“Be happy that for the short time he walked the earth he was able to accomplish so much and touch many lives in more ways we know.”

That is what my best friend told me as I talked to her about my day of reconnecting with friends and attending the Viewing of an old friend, AJ. Overall, the circumstances of AJs passing is really heartbreaking. To pass at such a young age, and be survived by his wife and child, his parents, and his younger siblings. Before heading to the viewing, I have to admit that I was a little worried about how things were gonna be. If I could keep it together, or buckle at the sight of his family and friends mourning. When I walked into the room, there he was. He was at peace, looking good as always. As I looked around the room, I saw tears, but what I mainly saw were people smiling. People talking amongst each other and greeting and reconnecting with those we lost touch with. Though it was unfortunate to have to gather with the given circumstances, AJ brought a lot of people back together. Rather than mourning, many celebrated his life.

As I observed this, I reflected for a moment. I thought to myself, “I wonder if this is how it’ll be like when my time comes - surrounded by happiness and joy, not tears of sadness.” I’m now beginning to think about the “legacy” I’ll leave behind- Who/What I’d like to be remembered for. AJs recent passing has been inspiration to me. To grab life by the horns, and enjoy the ride. To live for the day, and enjoy each moment. To make good use of the time I share with my loved ones.

I believe God has a plan for me. I may not know what it is just yet, but I believe it’s there. I’ll never know when it’s my time to go, nor can I spend my days thinking about. Rather, I can spend my days living them like they’re my last.

“I am the resurrection and the life; he who believe in Me will live even if he dies, and everyone who lives in Me will never die.” — John 11:25-26